i been a part of bitter wilds
i picked a card from a deck when you said and got a smile
kinda melancholy, like we're at a funeral
you're trying to tell me something
and im trying to keep my cool
its the usual
i been a misanthrope
throwing fire at a throne
wildly switching between certainty and just walking home
certainly im not alone
usually a loner though
only only 'cus the kids is rushin every noble kneeling prone
needin the edge or its not
cool i accept what i got
louder than most of your favorite rappers
with nary a plot
I wake up feeling like the end is upon us
I guess I'll go down swinging, slinging lead its a promise
I mean
I recall a cop sayin keep your nose clean
like we're on the same team
can you believe
its simple
I do everything within its own context
the prospects are null, the voidspit is atomic

...
I always wake up feelin like im still asleep
got a chronic case of thinking that the worlds on repeat

Its a surreal kinda summer
I got crushed when the chemicals kick and wanna wonder
I saw my face melt
now I feel better
though l sobered up still in floridian weather


shits strange
i could talk about it for days
I think i might be crazy
in a light green haze
i'm in the prime of my life
but I'm feelin' closer to death
i need to rest in whatever hotel I see next
and slow down [deep voice]
im tryna get lost for a minute
by the end I'll be stuck in a sylabel mid sentence
all trippin' on it like biblical verses to christians
I'm not a disciple
I am a defendent
get it?
sometimes I start to feel like a skrull
the only one thats not
or a composite of both
I been partying hard
I been keeping friends close
while I'm self-medicating with rap at high doses
oo
just got a text from a friend it
read that lately hes been to depressed and
I said Im here no matter what he needs just
text call or shoot flaming arrow to the east
whatever
My name sakes Sylvia Plath
She's onto something that I'm tryna to grasp
I noticed all my heros are dead
it often seems reality is a trap


i had a time and saw the world flicker out is was odd
and V is laughing as i'm taking too long
and get caught
It aint cold, i feel lost on a road that dont cross
I'm talkin right at the dog
although the dog didnt talk
although he's looking right at me
he might be tagging along
I'm just kidding but im not
aint pickin up when you call
sorry
Its been a weird half of a day, then
I look at the time
and its like 8 in the a m
I think im maybe okay
I got my head in my hands
I saw a death and a wake
I think i barely made it
I almost dont feel like shit
at the thought of losing lives
that I love and cant kick
I'm a goblin